I don't like you at all period, the way you treat me in the old days, hitting for small things that are useless that facts are in the old days, I was right I hate you, Mom and Dad I hate you the way you turned against me I love to appreciate my life the way I'm living, I life life but not in a cruel the way you treated me you sent me to public schools and it was like a camp were all people who have disabilities like me are I'm not sick or have autism or abused, you gave me a dirty legacy of memory of my childhood humiliation you brought pain to it and even what's worst I have no real friends who can help me move on to my life I don't even want to talk about it but this is the truth I want answers why I have a dirty minded legacy of my traits it whats matters to me I'm feeling the painful memories again and I want to to stop, I don't want to die I want to live and get a normal life that can uplift my survival spirit and help people I'm sick pf tired of living like a slave I'm an adult and I need my job experience I don't know what am I going to be yet and I can't decide because you screw up my child life I can't even enjoy it regularly because of autism and it sucks for me, even worst I don't have any privacy or free speech to people so I can help them, no mom shut up, I'm not retarded OK,? I know what name of everything is going on, you kept me brainwashed by stupid video games and fantasy nonsense that kept me distracted from the real world of good society and I'm crying my tears into blood... I---must move on too much pain...

Especially you dad you give the most punishment to me!